Running ft. Rivilin Lyrics

Watch the eye in the sky open up now

The blood moon screams as he gives you yeah his crown

The hospital you called home is overcrowded now

The room you had isn't yours you tear the walls down

You find a hole in the plaster and you crawl through

Question your own sanity because no one will follow you

Realize you're unmedicated, vision starts to vibrate to

See the fingernails start to peel back as the bones show through

You gotta understand that we don't see the same perspective of reality

Just because you see something different doesn't mean that its not real to me

Somedays I wake in a bed covered in ash and I don't think I can breathe

Staring at the ceiling above as the teeth start to show you burst through the door as I Scream

You look at me like I'm just different

Your piling rocks outside my chest until it crushes all of me

I walk outside, see missing posters

My face is painted on the wall and I'm hoping that I can be free

If I could explain my mind, would you want to understand

The fire burns hot from inside, it brings to life all my fears

Maybe I'm mentally fucked, is that why you stop and stare

Medicate me to feel numb so I don't show that I'm scared

I'm scared of my brain

Sorrow and panic with no one to blame

I'm terrified babe

I look for distractions in unhealthy ways

I'm elated bitch I gotta face it

I got problems that I know I'm making

I got issues stemming stemming from the liquids

Ima miss you, leaving for a quick hit

I know I got some problems

Sorry I ruined your daughter

I told her that I'm awful

Then she just passed the bottle

Woke up manic, automatic, panic at the damage

God I've fucking had it, gotta quit it, fuck I took granted

All those sober days I never knew, man fuck I got abandoned

By my fucking logic, man I got it, I'm an alcoholic

Fuck the beta blockers they ain't doing shit I gotta fight

Lost my chance at living like a fucking human cuz my mind

Man I'm sick of all this shaking in my hands I need a light

I need a glass, I need the wine

If I could explain my mind, would you want to understand

The fire burns hot from inside, it brings to life all my fears

Maybe I'm mentally fucked, is that why you stop and stare

Medicate me to feel numb so I don't show that I'm scared