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I watch you tear me open

And you say it doesn't have to be this way

And I know I must be leaving

You say it doesn't have to be this way

I'm leaving

Same reasons

I'm leaving

And I don't know

I don't know what's gonna happen

I don't know

I don't know what's gonna happen

Sometimes the train sounds like the ocean

When I'm asleep and leaving town

I close my eyes and notice

All the worst things

Sometimes your steps sound like a freight train

As I am lost and on the tracks

I close my eyes and realize

We're further away

And now a few times a year

I can't fall asleep

Without a pill down my throat

It takes some weight off of my feet

And I don't know

I don't know what's gonna happen

I don't know

I don't know what's gonna happen

When I was 18

I swore I'd never

But ten years

Has a way of teaching

Now I'm learning

That if I want to sleep

There's some things I can't keep to myself

And if I want to leave

There's some things I can't keep

And I don't know

I don't know what's gonna happen

I don't know

I don't know what's gonna happen

When I was 18 I swore I'd never

Take any pills to keep it together

And I told my father that I'd be stronger

That I'd find a way to do this no longer

Now I'm 28, ten years to the day

That I left for college to find a new calling

Now I'm in my bedroom apartment in Brooklyn

And I'm in full panic

And I think I've had it

And I think you've had it

And we're further away

We're further away

We're further away

We're further away