My Diary Lyrics

Cause we threw a coro, yeah we threw a coro

Shawty's came over, But I was too sober

Closed mouth

But sober thoughts

Give me the rum

So I can talk (Aye)

N the Mary jane it got me involved

With puzzle pieces that I can't solved

So I ask God

I've been writing lately, is it cause I'm dying lately

God forbid, but wtf you got my mind racing

With words to fill up these sentences

Or is it cause I'm destined to be send out messages,

Out to the youth

But I'm heavenly flawed addictions like you

Sometimes It Feels like no one understands you

Like you confused

Like as soon as you get it

Didn't know what to do it

I swear the fuck am I gonna do

Cause all I wonder

If you ever realize

What's in my mind

What's in my life

Oh yeah

Cause Every time I try not to just think of all these things

I just wanna breath

And I never cried when "X" died

But I probably do when "Shady" does

And If my tears hold value

Then I would drop one for every single thing he show us

They spying on my moves like they James bond

You all up in the buzz, tryna be ahead lightyears beyond

My soul is cover in ice, Im so gone

Always alone on my phone, the days are so long

Procrastination is my only friend all along

Myself to blame, I'm coping to be strong

Cause my brain is filled with a lot of poison

I'm using meds, guess weed is the potion

So we threw a coro, yeah we threw a coro

Shawtys came over, but I still feel sober

I'm drinking that henny, but cold like October

So I just cry on my own, on my shoulders

Cause now in days I be feeling so Bi-polar

Idk if I should believe in myself or I need help

I rather stay quiet, than speak to someone else

Cause the moment I vent, they used it against me

Cause I'm not tryna be accepted

I just want my music to not be rejected

Overwhelm with the thought if I ever make it

Or comes to the grips my soul needs to be accepted

Cause life, fortune, and fame

I know it leads to eternal flames

But at the moment, I'm tired of this pain

Seeing my momma tears come out of her eye veins

Cause we over crowed in a house

Nowhere to stay

And if it wasn't for her

I'll be homeless peforming on stage

No one cares,

Unless I'm Drake or Kanye on the air

Honestly I'm so scared

Call me a Coward

But I don't wanna live a life tryna survive

I wanna

I wanna see the beauty of this world in my eyes

I don't wanna see another 15 year old Die

R.I.P to Junior, can't believe that I'm alive

Damn I can't believe how time fucking flies

Now I'm my best friend, best man

Can't believe that I'm 25

I never seen this image in my eyes

N all I wanted to do was suicide

And all I wanna do is just stop time

Cause all I wonder, all I wonder

If you ever realize, realize

What's in my mind

What's in my life

Oh yeah

Cause Every time I try not to just think of all these things

I just wanna breath...