mixed thoughts Lyrics

I've been going on my own

Stone cold faced, that's what I've been told

Thoughts telling me I'll never be enough

Sick of being tired, but I wake up, the days already old

But, thinking to myself is such a curse, it's getting worse

I said I'd never be back here

But here we are, sad and alone

That's really all I got to show

Pain sticking with me through everythin', all the time

Fake smile on my face, but it just wants to fade

Reaper in my speakers

Fight them every dang day

No one ever said they wanted me until I fade away

Then its back to the old me, myself, and I

But little do they know, I'm dyin' on the inside

Night is where I struggle most

Staring at ceiling, thats all I really got to boast

I sit wanting to cry, but the tears stay internal

Been told to keep a journal

But my mind is just jumping into the inferno

Standing on my own

Been trying to make this known

Texts coming in, heart jumps

Then afterwards it goes and slows

Just a wilted rose

Tatted till the day I die

But all I can do is honestly just stay alive

I've been going on my own

Stone cold faced, that's what I've been told

Thoughts telling me I'll never be enough

Sick of being tired, but I wake up, the days already old

But, thinking to myself is such a curse, it's getting worse

I said I'd never be back here

But here we are, sad and alone

That's really all I got to show

Pain sticking with me through everythin', all the time

Fake smile on my face, but it just wants to fade

Why's depression on my brain?

Wanted to write letters to make people cry

Guess I do that later in life

Eternally alone, the hells wrong with me?

Honestly ran away to keep myself from running to-

My head is such mess

How can I clean up when I'm so depressed?

Cloudy skies, honest pessimistic issues

I've really tried to find the balance

For the pain that's in my mind

Walking alone is honestly such a vibe

Most nights are a constant struggle

Where's my soul? Can't ever seem to find it

On the endless toll of a pain-stricken road

Painful thoughts finally ceasing

But still, write these songs to vent the load

Finally breaking