1st Love Lyrics

Look at myself in the mirror just to reflect my decisions

And ever since I was young, I knew that I was different

Sat at lunch by myself, I knew I couldn't fit in

And I'ma be by myself when I start touchin' millions

I watched a person I love lose their love for me in front of my eyes

Know that shit killed me inside I watched a heartbreak that broke another heart

And then another heartbreak, so now it's built up inside

What am I supposed to do? Bitch, I miss the older you

Bitch, I still miss hold of you, I wish that I was close to you

Text you on IG to try to fix it, then regret it

They ask me why I'm nonchalant my heart, is where you left it

You told me that you hope I find somebody that's gon' love me like you couldn't

But I love you so bad, I wish I wouldn't

Nine months ain't see you, met you in New Riegel

We was supposed to be together, now it our hearts with different people

How long did it take you to delete our pictures

I know it took me a couple of months

Some shit I wonder, and I'm sorry if ever miss ya

You being happy is some shit that I just always want

Sometimes shit just don't work out

Even when y'all happy together

And you all striving, but fuck it, look

I don't even blame you for leaving

for you, I wasn't the best, man

I tried to be my best and then I always had checked in

Went up through yo phone and I see you had text him

But I was wrong for going through your phone

You was my first everything, I overthought it all reason I'm alone

My heart get mixed in with my peace, I'm barely holding on

I don't like to be around people, party all alone

Uh, you know what I'm on

And at the end of the day, I know I got myself

And when I'm off of my grind, I feel I'm not myself

Learning how to be alone is what I taught myself

All that shit that I bought you, I should've bought myself

With love I'm learning, no, I'm not perfect

I get the thinking heart, get heavy stomach, turning

I learned my purpose, know what my worth is

And I'ma only show my effort if you worth it

With time you supposed to heal Well, how much time I got?

And after you done left, I put more time in God

And I know it shouldn't take change to get closer

But sometimes it takes some change to get closer