Relapse Lyrics

I can't fall asleep no more, there's demons in the corner

And they're kicking down the door, I loosened up the hinges

I've been doing meditation, I still take my medication

But, the medicine ain't working for me, been retaliating on me

Walking like a zombie on the pain pills

I ain't gotta pay bills, but I'm still spending money I ain't got, it's like a treadmill

Feeling like my life is on a cycle

All my closest friends are suicidal

I used to wanna kill myself but died when I was thirteen

Started making music and my counselor was worried, but saw me getting pinned against the wall

Lately I've been dodging all the calls

I don't wanna talk to you unless you tell me sorry

Every day's the same, a different story from you, unless you want some comfort from me

I talked about you to my therapist and how you truly love me

But, it's kinda funny

I think it's kinda funny how I love you but I really hate it

I don't know what love is

How can I take care of you if I can't love myself?

Taking all the pictures off my shelf that I put up of you

Why do I put up with you?

Because of you I'm lying to myself and I promised all my friends that I wouldn't do the things I did again

I hope they can forgive me for my sins

I called you off the pain meds twice, you didn't answer

Spreading to my brain, you're like a cancer

My ex girl was a cancer, but I don't listen to the stars

If Imma be a star, I guess I'll quit before I start

I'm about to relapse cause' you're a drug to me

When you're drugging me I relax

It's a luxury I guess