Jealousy Lyrics

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2017, I was kicking it in Brooklyn

Sleeping in a church pew, my earbuds tryna hook in

With Eminem on shuffle, liked a couple of tracks

And, now I'm tryna rap and make a couple of stacks

I'm really tired of being broke

I'm tired of being alone

I just wanna buy a home, not with my brother in a dome room

I don't need an education if I'm chasing dreams

I'm chasing people up the stairway to heaven watching them bleed

This jealousy is getting bad, I think I need to leave

Was at my homies crib because he got a bigger house than me

I know that ain't important but I'm getting better sleep on his couch than at my house where I be having bad dreams

I guess that's just the consequences of an STD because your bed will never feel the same when guilt is in the sheets

Man, I ain't been this celibate since 2018 when I was flirting with this outcast who listened to me sing

I wrote my first song with her, I hope that she remembers

We ain't talked since that December cause' I was going through it

I always overdo it when I'm talking bout' my health because I pair it up with wealth tryna disguise the pain I've dealt

Don't nobody understand, I don't expect them to

I don't want an audience for all that I've been through

I wear it on my sleeve because I'm tired of tryna hide the things I've seen that actually happened in front of me

Four weeks ago I was in a hospital bed

I still got stitches in my head from where they opened up my ear

And, I can barely hear but I'm still gonna appear on these tracks cause' it's the only thing that makes my future clear