SOLDIER ft. Chyde Lyrics

SOLDIER ft. Chyde - Parker Jack

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I wish I could've said goodbye one more time

Even wrote a letter and signed it on the dotted line

But when you call me it's hard for me to press decline

I guess I'm chasing all these feelings that we left behind

But I know because you toxic, you just mess with minds

Didn't mean you have to pick me and then mess with mine

I should prob'ly test the water 'fore I take a dive

I guess I need to recognize that

These scars on my body carry weight just like a soldier

Not the person that I wished to be when I got older

I wish we grew closer but we only grew colder

But you left me freezing and it's hard to get over

Cause a broken-hearted person only finds a heartless friend

Just cause I'm a soldier, Imma carry to the end

I wish I could've left but it's hard for me to leave

Cause you tuggin' on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve

I'm not mad that you left, I'm mad that I'm alone

You could've said goodbye in person but on the phone

Such a wicked way to leave, I hate to see you go

We had a family but you don't wanna be at home

If I ever blame myself there'd be a bunch of nonsense

Not my fault so I guess that I have to cut my losses

But you left so fuckin' fast that I just couldn't process

I'm so sorry I'm a problem that sit on your conscience

I'm sorry that we fallin' out of broken patterns

Broken hearts, broken homes, broke and shattered

Sittin' on your knees and then you hope it matters

Beggin' baby please but you came close to damage

You can't plead, I gotta leave, carry the rest of

And I keep my head up and my chest up

And I keep my pride but my mind, you fuckin' messed up

And even though I'm out now, you the one that left us

These scars on my body carry weight just like a soldier

Not the person that I wished to be when I got older

I wish we grew closer but we only grew colder

But you left me freezing and it's hard to get over

Cause a broken-hearted person only finds a heartless friend

Just cause I'm a soldier, Imma carry to the end

I wish I could've left but it's hard for me to leave

Cause you tuggin' on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve

I tatted "love yourself" on my collarbone

Just to remind myself that I'm not alone

Just hopin' it would pass, the path that we're on

And all the memories that last after that you gone

Now even though I'm moving on

There's a part of me that wish you proved me wrong

That's my fault cause I made my heart your sanctuary

Thought you was the one I was supposed to marry naw

Not the scars you cause is what I hold to carry on

All of these emotions that I hope to bury naw

Ridin' on a rollercoaster, love so scary

We said forever but that was only momentarily

Love so scary but I guess we're better off

I had a necklace with your letter but I tore it off

These scars on my body carry weight just like a soldier

Not the person that I wished to be when I got older

I wish we grew closer but we only grew colder

But you left me freezing and it's hard to get over

Cause a broken-hearted person only finds a heartless friend

Just cause I'm a soldier, Imma carry to the end

I wish I could've left but it's hard for me to leave

Cause you tuggin' on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve