Alone (You Thought I Was Happy?) Lyrics

I love being alone, but not feeling alone

Girls text my phone, but none come home

Friends make plans, just to cancel

It feels like an act, it's simple

They tell me I matter, but to who?

Gun in my mouth, what you gonna do?

Cut myself up and down my damn body

So much pain, I ain't got nobody

Whispers in my ear, ghosts be talking

Hearing things at night, out my body

Experiences no one wants to see, I saw

Like your own friend, covered in damn blood

So many people I save, but who will save me?

Car going fast right into a damn tree

Wondering who will save me? Who will save me?

Gun is loaded with more than enough to take me

Sick of living in lies, need to get outta here

Trapped inside four walls, ain't got no fresh air

In my mind is how I feel, ain't been free in years

Like I'm locked up for murder, ain't no friends in here

Selling off my shit, won't need it where I'm going

Like I'm moving homes but six feet in the ground

No one will stop me I know that for a fact

This is a final cry for help, so who has my back?

Not saying it will happen this month

But know that the time is coming soon

Unless I get some help, I won't know what to do

Trying to explain what I have all tried

But at the end of the night, I can't help but cry

So please look at this song as a final damn goodbye