Still Dreaming... (Narcoleptic Edit) Lyrics

Taking shots in the dark no flashlight

Trying to write my story with no graphite

Tried sobriety but couldn't do that right

Feelings of anesthesia are coming back I'm

Still dreaming still blind

I'm still dreaming

Can't put the past behind me with no hindsight

Can't look to the future with no foresight

Still dreaming still blind

Yeah I'm still blind

'Cause there ain't no bliss in my ignorance

Feel like I missed the good shit from my innocence

When everything is leaving in front of my eyes

I realize this freedom I had was a lie

A momentary release from my real life

I can't delete the feelings that's up in my mind

This ain't no hard drive

Can't reset the time

Don't wanna draw the line

Between holding on to the climb and letting go of falling behind

But I could've avoided it with sight

And now I'm realizing the meaning of growing up

As a child idealizing of dreaming glowing up

'Till my hopes and theorizing turn seeing to closing up

All this time my real vice it was thinking I know enough

I wish I listened when my parents told me it would be this distant from my vision

'Fore I shut my lids and let my lips dismiss the shit I thought I figured out but didn't

When things don't go my way

They say that it will

And when it does

They say nothing will happen

But when it happens

They say nothing

Still trapped in the past

Still can't let it pass

Staying still in a maze

Still self deprecate

Been blind to my pain

Blind blind as a bat

Using blindness for shade

Driving blind through a race

Still can't pick a lane

Still looking back

Still too blind to change

Still trying to wake

Dreaming the same

Dream of guilt that I have

If a dream's only fake then why do my

Dreams affect my reality

And peace it seems like a fallacy

I'm balancing the weight of the world while I'm battling

Internally eternally but personally

The thing is that I'm learning to accept that people change

And step in a next direction to amend their past but not me

'Cause when I open my eyes I'm still dreaming

Still Dreaming still blind

I'm still dreaming

Can't put the past behind me with no hindsight

Can't look to the future with no foresight

Still dreaming still blind

Yeah I'm still blind

'Cause in this mentopolis I'm a citizen

I'm building now for the promise of the infinite

When everyone is bleeding in front of my eyes

I realize these changes I made were a lie

A momentary relapse from my real life

I can't lead the blind if I'm dreaming while blind

It's true that everything in life is temporary

The happiness the pain the losses the gains

How could I not assume things will leave me all the same

When I've always been scared to fall awake

I was pointlessly anointing these nonexistent ointments

On the wounds of my favorite voices

So boisterous all my choices are poisons begetting poisons

Rejoicing in disappointments bestowed upon the exploited

The people that I disjointed from my life that I been avoiding

I'm tired of rinse repeating to save something since deleted

So tired of different meanings for with-dealing the same shit that I been feeling

So tired of misconceiving the emotions I keep retrieving

Intended only for healing

And turning them into reasons to stay blind and be still dreaming

Still dreaming still blind

Thought I resolved this already

Still dreaming still blind

But I never actually reawakened

Still dreaming still blind

Still dreaming

Still still still dreaming

Still still still dreaming

Still dreaming still blind

Still dreaming

Still still still dreaming

Still still still dreaming

Where do these problems stem from

And how do they branch out

Maybe it's all a part of my family tree

Or maybe I'm the start of the sprout

'Cause lately I've been foraging through a dark forest

In the opposite direction of forward

And no foreword could've warned me for the next four words

I heard and learned to accept

It's all on me

I'm on the reflective side of a two-way mirror

Watching myself destroy the things around me

Almost powerless to stop it

Until I started to open my eyes

And now I'm not dreaming anymore

I'm not blind anymore

I'm not dreaming anymore

I'm not blind anymore

I'm not dreaming anymore

I'm not blind anymore

I'm not dreaming anymore

I'm not blind anymore