Instead Lyrics

I woke up in the middle of the night

Sweating profusely I can't read the time

I saw an unknown number called my line

But I know you well enough to think you'd call back

I think I need something to fill the space now

Avoiding every promise that I've made now

I hope the checks these jobs pay fill the weight

Keep busy 'til my thoughts can suffocate

And I know I shouldn't but

I'm replaying tapes of us

Rewind my favourite parts

Thinking what could of happened instead

Of falling apart in this bed

How all of minutes I've spent

All gone to waste in my head

Why won't you call me instead

I'm sure it's best just staying miles apart

I'm sure I'll move on find something much simpler

But I can't seem to turn the other way

The chaos holds a drug I find much easier

My friends are tired of hearing the same

Old rhetoric so I just hold the pain

Your orbits only strengthening my ache

I guess I'll learn the hard way all the same

Cause I know I shouldn't but

I'm replaying tapes of us

Rewind my favourite parts

Thinking what could of happened instead

Of falling apart in this bed

How all of minutes I've spent

All gone to waste in my head

Why won't you call me instead

And I called you

Hung up

Don't wanna miss you

Cause since you don't

Guess it all meant nothing

I bet you laughed

Shook it off with a high

One I wish u shared

As I sulk in the lows

And I miss that lip scrunch,

The ways you would mock

When I'd get defensive

The corny flirtations

You squeezed in the silence

You always hated

My thoughts got quiet

Cause you'd be the loudest

Oh

I woke up in the middle of the night

Sweating profusely I can't read the time

I saw an unknown number called my line

But I know you well enough to think you'd call back