Not All is Fair Lyrics

A lot has happened

Tell myself to talk about it

Talk about it? (oh no)

Barely even wanna write about it

Demons talking louder than my angels, that's why the weed be loud around me

Can't trust no one cause the last time someone had my back, I pulled a knife up out it

So nonchalant, I don't get hype about it

My true feelings, I just type around 'em

Spend most my time uplifting others

While my close ones just up and down me

I can see that you starting to doubt me

This here a circus but don't try to clown me

Still a king even without the crowning

Can't blame anyone except me cause I was the one who allowed it

Tried to keep they head above water while I was the one drowning

Me and you were so high up in the clouds but somehow you kept me grounded

Hate to say it, you better off without me

These moments I'm steady counting

It wasn't forever, but we can round it

Dreaming bout it when I'm back up in it

Took time off now I'm back to business

Used to wonder why they acting different

Plate full and little fed up but I'm used to seeing all these stack of dishes

I was in the hospital alone on bed rest writing down my last wishes

Typed and deleted that text to my ex, "Hey girl, I miss us" (girl, I miss us)

Lost my mentor all over some dumb shit

Hate how niggas pull the guns quick

Back in the day we used to run fist

Lately I been on numb shit

Had to slide on a nigga

Like a big booty hoe, had to ride on nigga

You don't wanna see me ever go to that side nigga

I lost everything, except my mind lil nigga

Shit take time, lil nigga

Damn, done made us a crime lil nigga

Cause I lost and fall,I mean I lost and all, I swear to god I really lost it all

Lost my girl, and my mom

Lost my car, and my phone

Lost my job, and my home

Cost all what I own

Lost my mind and my throne

Lost my pride, I'm gone

Got behind on the loans

See the signs that I'm wrong

All the times that I shown

Wondering why I feel alone

Sick and tired of all the hoes

Sick and tired of all the fake

Sick and tired of fake love from the bros

Sick and tired of being sick and tired

Sick and tired of shit moving so slow

Sick and tired of these snakes on the low

Wishing I never gave up control

To petty guys and they petty little roles

I don't have time for none the egos

Believe that mines a lot on its own

They picking sides, I get in my zone

Thinkin' What A Ride, its been so long

Know I gotta try, know I gotta be strong

These words hurt like sticks and stones

But gotta keep going and going and going

Been to war, nigga

With the government, and with the ops

With my mother and my pops

With my lover and my thoughts

With my brothers, and my laws

Can't believe a nigga loss

Can't believe I'm so lost

Can't believe this my fault

Best believe that in the end, nigga, that love & war is gone cost

All's not fair in Love & War