Find You Lyrics

Yeah

I've been trying to find You in the darkness

Heart's there but I'm feeling so heartless

No coat in the rain, trying to cope with the pain

I'm carrying the stains I can part with

I've been trying to find you in the darkness

Heart's there but feeling cold regardless

I've been stuck in a cave, all night, everyday

I'm burying the weight of the hardships

In the past I'd be standing on the top of my car

Trying to extend enough to feel like I be one with the stars

Yeah, trying to imagine life where I had reached my goals

But nowadays when I sit on my car

I pray to God that when I reach I ain't be reaching for scars, no

I pray to God that I won't ever sell my soul

Just to be accepted by the world

Didn't know where to go

Was failing God trying to navigate this life on my own

Was acting like I'm put together when I knew I was broke

Was claiming I was doing fine when I was losing my hope

Was trying to brighten up the room, my definition of cope

To bring the smiles and laughter when you hurting the most

To help the ones around you clinging to the end of their rope

Before you tend to your own scars that never heal cause you won't

Pick yourself up off the ground, change everything that you knew

You won't stop running from your issues like you know that you do

You won't stop hiding behind lies instead of facing the truth

Cause you be scared to open doors that might not lead to your room

Then you start to assume that you ain't meant to be heard

So you stitch up your mouth so you can't mutter a word

Fixated on your mistakes you're questioning what your worth

Then you put on a disguise and trying to hide from the hurt

You try to hide from the bullets they're flying up from the dirt

So any step that you take you body's feeling the burn

And you can never escape, this moments never adjourned

Cause you weren't willing to change, you weren't willing to learn

Nah, too stubborn to change

Maybe that's why life isn't going your way

Maybe that's why waking up is part of the pain

Cause consciously you know that everyday be looking the same

I've been trying to find You in the darkness

Heart's there but I'm feeling so heartless

No coat in the rain, trying to cope with the pain

I'm carrying the stains I can part with

I've been trying to find you in the darkness

Heart's there but feeling cold regardless

I've been stuck in a cave, all night, everyday

I'm burying the weight, of the hardships

I've been trying to find the pieces of myself that I lost

Conforming with society was fun but what did it cost

Was it worth it damaging my soul to raise up my stock

And find acceptance from some people only moving in flocks

Find acceptance from some people that are strangers to me

People who would turn their back if I was handed defeat

People who enter in my life just trying to dabble and leave

People that'd stab you in your back and sit and watch as you bleed

I can't believe I let my walls crumble down so that my ego could mend

And arrogance became an enemy disguised as a friend

If felt like I had lost everything, was stuck in my head

I couldn't function, I was tracking toward a life on the edge

And then, God called and I answered it

We chatted bout my life and how I've done my best to manage it

We talked about the journey I've been on and this abandonment

Quitting on myself instead of working on repairing it

I was feeling lost, what a shock I couldn't handle it

I stopped talking to God I couldn't take on the embarrassment

I wanted perfection, was too dumb to understand that it

Isn't possible, perfection wasn't what were granted with

No, too stubborn to change

Maybe that's why life isn't going your way

Maybe that's why waking up is part of the pain

Cause consciously you know that everyday be looking the same