heavy Lyrics

If you're watching this, then I'm already dead

So my eyes are a bit red, but no, i'm not stoned, I hope you are though

My life is heavy, you couldn't move it

In my shoes, wanna do some, you couldn't do it

She said i'm not the one, she must think she cupid

And i'm tired of peoples opinions, like dawg you are clueless

Wanna ask haters, like "why do you do this?"

Stroud really sucks, I ignore it with music

Newcastle the best, I wanna go back

I never will because of my dad

I want to love, I want it so bad

I can't because my generation bad

I wanna go, but my mom will be sad

I can't do nothing, i'm stuck inna trap

Ungrateful they think, I am the opposite

Say what they say, I will deposit

My feelings away, so I will await for something to change, yeah

I'm a changer when i'm feeling danger

I got at least eighteen old me's

Feeling like I took down eighteen trees

Cause all of them me's had there own things (old things)

I'm a hater when it comes to me cause they all tryna take down me

A verbal abuser, ask joey

Did that to many, and i'm sorry

But, all y'all deserve it

I hid behind curtains

Y'all looked for me and decided that i'm worthless

Got a wrong vibe from the country and now i'm allergic

You getting too close, acknowledge my emergence

See that i'm hurting, you twist it and hurt it

Y'all are not perfect

And I am so certain

And i'm always me

Blonde, purple, pink

Whatever you see, I still go hard and i'm good for your team

Yeah, do you wanna know what I know?

I stayed here for the shows

My favorite person, they know, yeah

Screw being woke (old things)

Always been alone

So my face stuck to this phone

My mother really don't like me

I don't blame her

I lost hope

I get up and tell myself

That I failed her

And my minds dealt

With so much now

That I forget my moms health

And i'm in hell

I need some intel

On my mind

Like tell me how I felt

How I felt

Old things