Diary Lyrics

Lost my first brother never got to meet him

Sickle cell anaemia nothing coulda healed him

Then i lost another April 4th 96

Cult boys slaughtered i ain’t been the same ever since

6 became 4 popped out in 84

Mama said i came late i was due a day before

Looked like life hated me looked like ain’t no ***

Cause just before i came dad lost his job in 83

Born into this family, born with a mentality

That i was born just to replace a past tragedy

There ain’t no rescue whenever death choose

Daddy working hard just to send us to the best schools

But how could you think we just about to fit

Spending weeks at home cause he couldn’t afford the school fees

We ran like loose kids what you expect

Street boys never give a fuck about your dress sense

I cant ***

To be with you

I'd walk a thousand miles

And i just wan say

I cant ***

Deep in my heart

I'd never say good bye

Never been a daft always had good grades

Kids call it secondary school was like a new phase

Thats where i found rap thats where i found that

Life is what you make it and i thought that i could bounce back

Things got harder condition make the fish bend

Thrown out on the streets cause we couldn’t afford to pay rent

Squatted for a few months found a new house

My bro couldn’t take it no more he had to move out

I tried to be stable tried to find a label but

Daddy was no longer able to put food on the table

So he had to leave us such a huge problem

Mama took over i contemplated suicide

Record label put me off, tried to put the pen away

I remember shedding tears at my sis wedding day

No ups and downs just downs going buckwild

Nothing hurt more when my sis lost her third child

I cant ***

To be with you

I'd walk a thousand miles

And i just wan say

I cant ***

Deep in my heart

I'd never say good bye

Frank got a job prince got out of med school

Me cracked up in unilag still am thankful

Became an uncle at a young age with three nephews

My sis got a family now we two left to

Hold the house down i pushed rap further

I pushed with everything i got i hope i last longer

Cut beef with *** beats i put the butchers blade through

Praise God *** i blazed the whole crew

Then my first EP ***

Slow money is better than no money but on the other hand

Just about 22 feeling like santa claus

Then i met the love of my life at least i thought she was

Record labels ***

***** i wasn’t buying the crap

Shawty kept complaining and i tried to contain it

But she kept misbehaving acting like an ignoramous

I tried to make her famous you see as e dey be

While i was on the grind she was busy screwing DJ Z

But it ain’t your fucking fault i ain’t got a fucking vault

Stack with billions i'd sell my soul to a fucking cult

Now am fucking blunt used to love you now i dont

Find another nigga to get stuck with suck you fucking cunt

Maybe i lied maybe i still got some feeling in

All i see is blank spaces help me fill it in

But am stil on point name's got me blowing up

Champagne or *** now when they holding up

Old as fuck was dead but now am woken up

Everything is coming together now i got my voltron up

I cant ***

To be with you

I'd walk a thousand miles

And i just wan say

I cant ***

Deep in my heart

I'd never say good bye