Lesions Lyrics

Ive been holdin this in

Ive got a lot to say

I guess i hoped itd go away

But its

Not that easy

To heal all my lesions

Im alive my hearts beating but

It dont feel like im breathing

I may be

Outta my mind

For thinking you are here

Right By my side

Cause i dont see you there

Even though i know your gone

Your memory with me is Strong

I keep you in a jar around my Neck

I never take it off

Every single memory

I live in like its a penitentiary

How do i find a way out if im Living in this Cell that is lock By the keys of greif

Im screaming "let me out" but They turn The lights out now Im holding to these Bars in Disbelief

Im looking for a way to escape All the pain That ive held when Rhey said you were Deceased

Im crying through the day yeah

I hate

Living in the past i

Cant change

Anything that happened Accepting its a Battle have to Take a medication

That numbs pain

I havent felt determined but Feel like im a Burden had to Listen to the service while In Cell 8

Everytime i picture you i see You in the Garden planting Roses with a huge smile On Your face

Theres a lot of miles now Between us but Im hoping that You see us down here

Look at these tears

Running down my face

I almost have a bucket for your Flowers

To water them while you are Not Here

The family doesnt come Around or Question yeah its Really been depressing

So i wonder whats the lesson From this

Wiping off my face cause i see You in the Stars and ill see you While your far and i Know Youll hear this

I may be

Outta my mind

For think you are here

Right By my side

Cause i dont see you there

Even though i know your gone

Your memory with me is Strong

I keep you in a jar around my Neck

I never take it off

I remember everything you Taught me How to sew to do Laundry

How to seperate socks

Taught me how to till a garden Ved how To harvest every Veggie when its ready For it to Come off

I remember playing in the mud Like we Were in the movie Holes cause you knew How to Be young

I remember how you made a Quilt then Had me wrap up and Had me put a sticker Saying it Was for mom

When you made it for me

Cause you wanted me to be Involved

I was there and i got to be a Witness to The process down To the fabic you got

These are just a few of many Memories You left behind for Me to always have a Way to Feel your love

If you ever had to go to the Heavens gate

Death had taken many greats And one of Them was your son

I can feel you here with me

I miss you but i hope your free

This is how i deal woth my Greif

Writing you a letter

I hope youll see

Maybe its not possible

But ive been feeling Comfortable with Being stuck In the cell im held in

My therapist will tell me this is How the Process works one day This greif wont Keep me here

Ive been holdin this in

Ive got a lot to say

I guess i hoped itd go away

But its

Not that easy

To heal all my lesions

Im alive my hearts beating but

It dont feel like im breathing

I may be

Outta my mind

For thinking you are here

Right By my side

Cause i dont see you there

Even though i know your gone,

Your memory with me is Strong

I keep you in a jar around my Neck

I never take it off

Ive been holdin this in

Ive got a lot to say

I guess i hoped itd go away

But its

Not that easy

To heal all my lesions

Im alive my hearts beating but

It dont feel like im breathing

I may be

Outta my mind

For thinking you are here

Right By my side

Cause i dont see you there

Even though i know your gone,

Your memory with me is Strong

I keep you in a jar around my Neck

I never take it off