What is Life Lyrics

Man I'm so high I feel like I'm 7'2"

And this beat so smooth it sound like heaven do

I'm in pain so I smoke down to the residue

And my brain is swirling 'round how the weather do

More fatal than hurricanes and tornadoes

Baby I ain't no angel you ain't gon' see a halo

But if you look in my eyes I bet you see the pain though

If you knew what's inside, I wouldn't have to say so

Pain management, brain damagin' substances

In love with the buzz I get, I just can't get enough of it

I gotta get higher and so the dosage needs doublin'

And prospects are dire so I lay down and give up again

Yeah depression got me questionin'

I try to get the best of it

But everytime I turn around those thoughts inside my head again

Wrestlin' with pessimism, solve it with the medicine

Try to stay ahead of it, but fall back into restlessness

I'm standin'' on the precipice of death

This is existential dread

Yeah my penmanship's adept

A perfectionist at best

But at worst I'm cursed

I let my blood dot the page that's how I wrote this verse

Until I leave this Earth

I can't be free from hurt

I think I need a nurse

I'd rather weed and worse

I guess we'll see what works

I'm plantin' seeds in dirt

Man I need peace, but please it's not an easy search

Gotta believe it first

Soft spoken, been heartbroken, but still hopin'

My thoughts open, but door's closin', I'm not copin'

I start chokin' from smoke tokin', I'm not jokin'

A lost soldier, been glossed over, I'm not sober

Bars far as the Mars rover, the stars closer

This hard potion, dissolved motrin and ibuprofen

Pass me an Advil, I'm speakin' factual, I keep it casual

Did what I had to do, made some choices that's unimaginable

Man what is life, the sharpest knife, the coldest ice

Can't make it right, I stay enticed, so I paid the price

I died twice like Jesus Christ in fourty nights

Say he is risen, the realest spittin', this weed is hittin'

I see the difference between these bitches, its easy pickens

I have a vision

I'm Nas on "It Was Written"

LeBron against the Pistons

I rhyme like I'm on a mission

I might just be too ambitious

I'm spiraling with addictions

The textbook definition

Of blessings that were hidden

A desperate man who's ridden

With stress and inhibition

I'm tested by the minute

Depressed but keep on livin'

The rest can be forgiven

No less, I gotta deal with

This mess, and go and get it

The stress, I gotta kill it

Success, I gotta will it

The game is in my spirit

But fame I'm far from near it

The rain, yeah I can hear it

The same way I can feel it

The pain, no way to heal it

Oh yeah, no way to heal it

Uh-huh, no way to heal it

Can't treat it

I know that I have to beat it

Some days I feel defeated

But hope is in the air, I just know I gotta reach it

I'm struggling to breathe in the deep end

Knees weaken

Deep thinkin'

Breeds drinkin'

Doubts creep in

I keep sinkin'

Dreams shrinken, slip away, and turn to dust

But I can't change what it is or what it was

So much wisdom in stoicism and prose I've written

Just hold and listen, this flow I'm spittin' is so uplifting

Ocean visits to cleanse my mind of old addictions

I hope and wish it, I say it's fine, but I know it isn't

I try and search the sky and earth for my own worth

I write a verse 'bout living fast and dying first

The truth hurts and lying works so which is worse

Some real decisions I'm dealin' with 'em, my feelings missin'

Covered in scars, it's so bizarre I've come this far

Just deal the cards, I'll take the spades, you keep the hearts

I know it's hard, you're free from blame, I'll take the charge

A stubborn artist, the toughest target, that's since it started

A puzzling duality, the nature of reality

A wish for immortality, I know that that's a fallacy

Standin' on the balcony, my homies at the back of me

The way I see it now, man none of this even matters G