The Second Option Lyrics

Why'd they treat me like a kid up in adoption?

Why'd they treat me like a painting in an auction?

In my life, they were always just a toxin

Why'd they treat me like I'm a second option?

If it's sooner or it's later, I just know they'll pay their dues

They'll come back into my life when they see me on the news

If I'm big or if I'm dead, one of those is their excuse

When I'm bringing out my wallet, it's when I know that they'll seduce

To every single one, I was always just another

To the dancer and the cancer that I met back in summer

I know one day they'll both be back, but there's that one girl, a runner

She's the only one who's different, cause she's helping me recover

But the rest, fuck them, I don't know why I feel sorry

The alcoholic could've had me but instead she chose Bacardi

I know I took an L, I know I'm not the next Lombardi

But they'll all be coming back when they see me with a Rarri

When their mans leave and he cheats

I won't be the guy they used to send streaks

I'll be the guy who says that they're for the streets

But I won't be the guy who starts to taste defeat

I don't know why I'm still getting mixed emotions

I don't know why people say that I write poems

I don't know why people tell me that my really sad story is just a way of trying to give myself promotions

Why'd they treat me like a kid up in adoption?

Why'd they treat me like a painting in an auction?

In my life, they were always just a toxin

Why'd they treat me like I'm a second option?

If it's sooner or it's later, I just know they'll pay their dues

They'll come back into my life when they see me on the news

If I'm big or if I'm dead, one of those is their excuse

When I'm bringing out my wallet, it's when I know that they'll seduce

I don't want it any other way

I don't wanna think about them any other day

I don't wanna leave, go to any other place

I'm staying in the middle, not in black and white, I'm gray

All the feelings that I feel, I just want this pain to heal

Take the chips in poker because I don't wanna deal

I didn't give them love so that they can go and steal

But everything we had, was it ever even real?

They remember last time that we talked

When we ended being friends, and they told me "take a walk"

I remember every day

Even though I moved to college about a hundred miles away

Even though I know they're gone

I always feel they're gonna stay

But maybe I'm wrong

I thought I could go right past it

And I thought I moved on

But I didn't

'Cause now I'm thinking bout them all over again

But the more I think about it, man they're not even tens

Why'd they treat me like a kid up in adoption?

Why'd they treat me like a painting in an auction?

In my life, they were always just a toxin

Why'd they treat me like I'm a second option?

If it's sooner or it's later, I just know they'll pay their dues

They'll come back into my life when they see me on the news

If I'm big or if I'm dead, one of those is their excuse

When I'm bringing out my wallet, it's when I know that they'll seduce