Hold Back Lyrics

The first was why I left

And the second's why I'm back

And then I got addicted

To a whole bottle of Jack

I thought I had my life together

I thought I'm back on track

But i don't know if I'll move on

Because I'm always holding back

Love can be a dream you want but know that you can't have

Or a nightmare that you can't wake up from, yeah this shit don't last

She thought I was gonna make it, she was only after cash

I was giving her my all, and she still bringing up my past

There was a time I said I loved you

Nah fuck that, cause we're done

I thought we'd go until the end

But I guess I'm just for fun

I thought we would go to Vegas

Or one day we'd have a son

But you played me like a fiddle

I guess I was your hit and run

How you gonna tell your folks

How you put me on the ropes

I asked you if you love me

And you said 'not even close'

Every time I write, you were calling me a goat

But that to the point that you crush all my hopes

I've wasted all my life on you

But now I'm done

All I did was show you sympathy

I thought I won

But I was wrong, I was wrong

Cause you went on the run

I saw you as my girl

But you saw me just for fun

I really thought there was a we and then I saw the other five

But maybe there can be an us, maybe in another life

Ha, nah I lied, cause I can find another wife

I wrote a song for your birthday and you still chose the other guy

The first was why I left

And the second's why I'm back

And then I got addicted

To a whole bottle of Jack

I thought I had my life together

I thought I'm back on track

But i don't know if I'll move on

Because I'm always holding back

When we met that one summer

Then you chose another guy

You didn't think about me

All the nights I went and cried

I told you I had trust issues

And you still lied

Give me back that whole year

When we met on 4th of July

But I forgive you

After everything you did, I forgive you

But I still don't ever want you back

That's the one thing I won't give you

Satisfaction

You may have helped me find my passion

But you were always a distraction

I loved you for a while, and then that changed

Because one thing happened to us, yeah we aged

But I still don't understand, why was I the one to blame?

You thought I was your ex, you really thought I wouldn't change

I'm not the one who lost

Cause you losing all your friends

First your ex and then you lost me

And your actions, super costly

I still see you in my nightmares

Cause you always try to haunt me

You just tossed me like I'm trash

Like I'm your dirty laundry

But I'll wait

And I'll keep waiting for the day that we meet

One last time

Who knows what's gonna happen?

It might be the last time

Cause when you cut me out your life

It was only halftime

But now it's the fourth quarter

Let's end it

Stop saying you're the victim

Stop pretending

Cause you hurt me and your ex

You said he doesn't give a shit

And made me feel like I'm up next

But even though I hate you

I still wish for one more talk

I still wish for one more walk

Not to send me any threats

Or my car that you would stalk

I really thought there was a we

I really thought we were team

I really thought we'd be together

Things ain't always how they seem

Even when you didn't talk to me, you're still all of my streams

But maybe I'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

The first was why I left

And the second's why I'm back

And then I got addicted

To a whole bottle of Jack

I thought I had my life together

I thought I'm back on track

But i don't know if I'll move on

Because I'm always holding back