Star Shopping Lyrics

Yeah she's pondering life circumstantial evidence

Got her on the fence, questioning everything in her plans

With her man, she think he out cheating on the weekend

Long trips making excuses with what he's doing

It don't add up, her feelings start to catch up

Her insecurities push her to the open bath tub

Suicidal thoughts and a razor blade in the trash

Blood dripping the stain and running down on her mat

When it's bad, it be bad

Nobody not even her could save her from her own wrath

So she's tripping, the rooms spinning

Until it's all black

Paramedics show up, she don't even know it's gone bad

Flat lined, there she goes, fallen angel in the trash

Better step up, praying cause you messed up

Remorse ran its course now you guilty like the next one

Love don't exist when you acting like this

When you out here using kids for collateral damage

I'm on that Adderall jamming

I'm out here calling demanding on anyone who can't stand it

I'm always loose with that cannon

And I don't think you can manage to take a cut with a pay

You got to learn to sacrifice, got to cope the shade

When they bludgeon you to bits, now I roll with the hits

Yeah, they try to hold a grudge against me, that isn't it

And even if I told you not to, you would do it again

They always tempt you with a good time, then the good time ends

But I don't get it

The aftermath diminished

It's not always about how you start but more to how you finish

You built me up to break me down, crashed me into smithereens

Was on a plane to get us out, guess you changed that scene

But I done told you, you folded like the old you

I told you what you wanted and I know that I done sold you on

I bring the wrath of Kahn

I'm not the average John

I'm more the pro smoking dro until I'm plastered gone

And I don't owe you nothing, why you bluffing like you the best one

You didn't even call me back so why you got to play dumb

Play dumb, play stupid, like you don't know what you're doing

Cause I'm over it, and over you

Just leave me out the loop, I can't stand it

Reaching out in panic

If this is how it really goes I'm feeling kind of manic

I'm anxious with my situation, now you off and vanished

If you didn't want then, then why'd you hand me off so candid

I see It's easy come, easy go

Fuck your status quo

Might be from the slums, you don't know

Watch me crack the code

Why you bugging and fucking with my emotional state

If this is fate a single mom shaping me from the grave

Until this date I didn't know, what was real and what was fake

The hardest part about me being me was always the case

Until you've walked up into my shoes, you don't know what I would do

Until you've felt what I have felt, the hopelessness of solitude

It's not easy waking up and not knowing what's going on

A part of me that I left that died there with my Mom

I tried to do my best but I can't do this with you gone

Any meds that get me up, as long as you can carry on

To a distant holy place, a place that we can call our own

To a solemn retribution, a place we called a home

It's been so long since I been happy, and I can't take it

The harder that I be fighting

The struggle just keeps on taking away

I guess I'll fight in the shade

If it wasn't for the pain, then we never would change

It be a never ending cycle of the drama that stay

I just want to live for something bigger

Is that okay

They just want to see me fall, crash

Man, fuck that bro

If they want that satisfaction better lookout below

If it's trouble they be wanting then why you stunting like a hoe

I see I doubled up it's funny watching you just die alone

I am the culprit, the suspect, guilty and I accept it

At least that I can admit that I was lonely and stressed with

The fear of being clouded with judgment is my assessment

I hear this war inside my head like I don't know what death is

I tried

To do it alone

And I lied to you so much

So I'm sorry for the bad times

I know why you had to cut ties

I tried

To do it alone

And I lied to you so much

So I'm sorry for the bad times

I know why you had to cut ties

You see It's easy come, easy go

Fuck your status quo

Might be from the slums, you don't know

Watch me crack the code

Why you bugging and fucking with my emotional state

If this is fate a single mom shaping me from the grave

Until this date I didn't know, what was real and what was fake