tears falling from stalactite Lyrics

Growing up I couldn't even be myself

Y'all put me in a personal hell

I pierce my ears and I paint my nails

I'm not even gay but you put me in the well

And I'm sorry that I cannot someone else

But I'm back to the feelings that I wish I never felt

All I ever really wanted was to just be held

These are my thoughts and feelings, I'm not tryna sell

Yeah Body dysphoria caused me to crash

Not just weight but everything down to my lash

Didn't really know who I was or what I had

I was dealing with this in front of everyone in a flash

And I never cut myself but it left a deep gash

Yeah every time I tried to focus my teeth would gnash

Yeah started to hurt people only in my head we'd clash

And clans were made and it left a deep slash

Yeah spoken word turned hate and subtle slurs

I never viewed people as less than me so when you did it hurt

I been tryna fix myself but self love is something I'll never learn

Y'all been tryna put me in a box but I promise I'm not just a verb

If anything I think I'm less than the dirt

Yeah honestly I can't even find a word

Yeah prophecy I think I'll put you in a verse

And you really hate me then why on accounts you lurk

For the last four months I was not myself

And I'm tired of acting like I care as well

And I'm not gonna apologize until

Y'all say sorry for the years of hell

Growing up I couldn't even be myself

Y'all put me in a personal hell

I pierce my ears and I paint my nails

I'm not even gay but you put me in the well