The big chair Lyrics

Back when I was kid, I used to always look ahead

Dreamed of mastering everything my mind would make appear

I remember vividly visiting my grand parents

Told me that I could sit anywhere except the big chair

That was only for grandpa

Made for the family patriarch

I was barely off pampers but looking up to the rafters

The allure that was born in my heart from that chair that towered

Over me controlling me, made me thirst for great power

Want control

But I still wanna fly

To be grown

But never die

Wear the crown

Without the trials

Yeah

What it gotta take to be that guy?

I've always seen the throne in my eyes, that's why

And when I sit at home man just fantasise

Coz when I be alone, think of old passed time

I wanna be free and dodge life's snares

Allowed to be me and hold all the keys

I want the big chair

Yeah, I want the big chair

I was the only son of their only son

So in due time, power was gon' come

But the draw of the chair pulled me like the sun

And so my life would revolve around it til my kingdom come

I sought it all day from associations to school hallways

And in the broad day, the dark power that lights pathways

I want it all, the kind that makes the hearts of men salty

And moves armies, makes the Kings of this world call me

Knowledge is power and knowledge is light

So if I know the most, I can do what is right

But after all my growth, I know there's more to life

But I'd be lying if I said that it ain't in my sights, right?

Want control

But I still wanna fly

To be grown

But never die

Wear the crown

Without the trials

Yeah

What it gotta take to be that guy?

I've always seen the throne in my eyes, that's why

And when I sit at home man just fantasise

Coz when I be alone, think of old passed time

I wanna be free and dodge life's snares

Allowed to be me and hold all the keys

I want the big chair

Yeah, I want the big chair

This desire like blank ink, permeated through me

But I ain't no dummy, no the darkness of the heart can't fool me

Always on guard for the secret lies told by Lucy

And juicy Suzy's tryna steer me out the way to use me

And so I developed the fetish for freakish control

Obsessed with aesthetic I try to use it, reach my goals

The devilish glint I have stuck inside my eyes

Ironically led me down a path paved with many lies

And so here I stand, in the middle of it all conflicted

I know with growth comes a dream from the Lord, my mission

Am I Cooking in hell's kitchen, am I aware?

Is the glint that's in my eyes really the big chair?

Want control

But I still wanna fly

To be grown

But never die

Wear the crown

Without the trials

Yeah

What it gotta take to be that guy?

I've always seen the throne in my eyes, that's why

And when I sit at home man just fantasise

Coz when I be alone, think of old passed time

I wanna be free and dodge life's snares

Allowed to be me and hold all the keys

I want the big chair

Yeah, I want the big chair