Soul Surgery Lyrics
- Genre:Alternative
- Year of Release:2023
Lyrics
I try therapy
But that only goes so far
In this reality
Even time can't heal these scars
And there ain't no sleep
For a full time psychonaut
All of eternity
All of eternity
So I just breathe
Through the overwhelming thoughts
And I hope to be
Okay even though I'm not
In this reality
While time keeps speeding up
Taking my family
Taking my family
It was never my intention to open up the box
And now I pay the consequences but for what and at what cost?
I only wanted a transcendence but I took it way too far
And now I think I know too much. I guess I found what I had sought
I'm not religious but it's funny all the parallels I see
Biblical trees, Eve, apples, snakes and LSD
Holy sisters with a mission see an opportunity
A wounded sinner at his wit's end tortured by symbolic dreams
They place a hand upon his heart while claiming total sympathy
And dug in deeper to his mind performing soul surgery
They almost had me till they came for the most core part of me
How I love and who I'm loving saying God did not agree
And so I hugged them and I thanked them for their generosity
And let them believe that they helped me get a little clarity
And in that moment made the choice to never trust anybody
Because they'll fucking rip my heart out like it's out of love for me
I'm frozen
Trapped in the loop of time
I've broken
The architecture of my mind
Mouth wide open
But I don't know if I should say this
I'm hopeless
And I'm scared that it's contagious
In my twenties I'm a big boy now
But I'm still about as clueless when I was a child and
Michael Myers doesn't scare me now
But there's a new kind of boogeyman in town
And it's creeping, creeping up on me
It wears the faces of my loved ones, sneaking in my dreams
It took a bite out of my neck and I woke up seizing
Now I gotta get it checked
What does it mean?
Dreams of sacred ancient knowledge being handed to me
Beware the questions that you ask, 'cause you shall receive
It's all a little much to handle
Better count my breathing
My mind is cracking open
Now it won't stop bleeding
Oh God
Can you help me out?
Cause I'm going down
Look who the little nihilist is praying out to now
Oh God
Where are you now?
Cause I'm going down
Mouth wide open, try to scream
But it won't come out
Hell is not a place
Hell is not a time
Hell is not a pit of fire that we burn in when we die
But hell is not a myth
No, hell is not a lie
It's a state of mind
Help me