AFRAID Lyrics

A lot of nights, yeah a lot of nights I'm afraid

Feels like more times I be stuck up in my ways yeah

I can't turn back from the path that I made no

But no lie I just be so afraid sometimes

That I may never find

No fucking peace of mind

To find some peace I'm trying

I can't relive my mind

Please stress release my mind

So much can't leave behind

I know in all due time it'll get better

Not scared from the stages or lights I'm afraid

From the judgement thats comes behind them

Be too deep in my thoughts no point to deny them

Can't describe them that well then got used to rhyming

Not afraid of the love but afraid some might love for the illest reasons

Never gave out a blanket when I was freezing

But gonna scrap off my plate when a nigga eating

Now someone tell me what kind of shit is that

Put a hundred percent in and ain't get it back

It's this passion that make it hard to relax

Once slow up your stride ain't no coming back

That's why I keep running and running

But at the same time feel I'm running from something

Running away from the pain I maintained so I could build up my production

Blood, sweat, and tears is what I shed to get close to a new position

Of life where my momma gets early pension

Where I don't sleep under live ammunition

Bullets whizzing they land left a body twitching

It's too sad because not many bullets missed them

It gets worse to think that someone bound to miss them

Too afraid I'll get caught in that deadly system

That's the reason my pride won't outweigh my wisdom

I'll admit tho that it has before

My anger flares up then it over flows

Till I break down the wall of this studio

Keep working its no way I do not blow

When they call up my name I'll be ready though

If I'm not ready now then when will I know

Stay up through the fear that I undergo

A lot of nights, yeah a lot of nights I'm afraid

Feels like more times I be stuck up in my ways yeah

I can't turn back from the path that I made no

But no lies I just be so afraid sometimes

That I may never find

No fucking peace of mind

To find some peace I'm trying

I can't relive my mind

Please stress release my mind

So much can't leave behind

I know in all due time it'll get better

So please tell me truthfully

Would you come through for me

If I get too in my head dreaming lucidly

I be afraid that I'll lash out brutally

If I fall who gonna carry

If it ends terribly

Can't be replaced I'm mother fucking rarity

That's why I cannot be took for no parody

Fuck popularity

Need solidarity without no strings added on

Insomniac I be up until dawn

Till I wake up to ten acre lawn

Only I know what I made of

Failure and lies I'm afraid of

Create my own demise I'm afraid of

I don't think there's a world where I gave up

Where I gave up

Yeah Yeah I'm afraid

I be stuck in my ways

I be stuck in ways sometimes

Yeah I be so afraid

Yeah I be so afraid