Dearly Departed Lyrics

I guess it is sometimes I think about my father

I wanna be a man like him I wanna take a stand like him

I wanna make a plan like him

Thinking bout the beach and playing in the ocean the sands again

I really want to see him clap and cry up in the stands again

Long time I was panicking

I was feeling like the chosen one cause so many forces was pulling me like Anakin

Had the devil talking to me when God was not answering

I asked God why he'd take my pops he couldn't give me answers then

Where was God I tuned my back completely

I was hurt and down and felt that no one else could fucking see me

I was chained in pain and there wasn't shit that could fucking free me

I just wanted him to see me graduate that would complete me

I was his pride and joy

But not once did he say it to me that's the saddest story

He'd say and when I'm gone just carry on don't mourn

Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice just know that

I love you son

I love you son

I love you son and no matter where you do go

And no matter where you end up

And no matter if you feel low

And no matter if you can't see me

That's why I make videos

You can play 'em anytime freely

You feel inside of your soul

The need for having your father

Just know that you have your brother

Just know that you have my daughters

Just know that you have your mother

Know that you ain't a bother

I know I was always harder

I know it was never easy

Apologize but regardless

Probably thought I was heartless

But hopefully through the hardships

I made a man out of you

Before I dearly departed

A man was made but a little boy was slayed

Nobody gave me no clues on how long this shit would take

Would it heal, nobody ask me how I fucking feel

I would wake up in my bed from no sleep and ask is this even fucking real

You would go and grab the steel and you'd aim it at yourself

You would let me find your body as I'm crying out for help

You selfish fucking bastard how I want you back so bad

Had to hold your wife my mother who you left so fucking sad

My one and only dad how you left this world unpaid

Got me sitting here and I'm thinking bout the days

Where we go and toss the ball and all the games we played

Now I'm screaming out to God how the fuck you couldn't save

My only pops, now I'm sitting here asking for the pain to stop

You left me with some nightmares every night I had to watch

You made me think my only fate was end it with a gun

To this day I could hear you say the words I love you son

I love you son

I love you son

I love you son and I hope that you keep your passion

I hope that you get your wishes

I hope that the pain just passes

I know that you want to kick it

Or punch me like you was Cassius

Just know that my time was ticking

So toast to me with some glasses

I know for a long time you'll ask why I did this.

But I hope one day and one day soon you can find forgiveness