Controlled Chaos Lyrics

Paul

Paulie

What

Are you ready

Waking up in a sweat

With my mind filled with dread

You shouldn't gas light me up

While you set flames to my head

I fill myself up with doubt

I swear, I cry and I shout

Looking for things so serene

Got to get out of this town

I douse it with gasoline

This fire never goes out

My journey's good and it's bad

But I'm so fucking proud

You say it's all in my head

I'm controlled chaos

I think I'm better off dead

I'm controlled chaos

I know I'm just in my way

I'm controlled chaos

Still searching for better days

I'm controlled chaos

Try to remember to breathe

I'm controlled chaos

Try to stop clinching your teeth

I'm controlled chaos

And it's my life should I save

I'm controlled chaos

Always one foot in the grave

I'm controlled chaos

I have spent hours alone

Trying to get off my throne

I don't have the strength to move

Or even pick up my phone

Everyone hopes I'm alright

I'm fine but screaming inside

These thoughts they poke and they pry

And make me want to die

Try to explain it to you

With this fear in my eyes

Hope I'm not freaking you out

Now you know what I'm about

Want to argue about this

You know I'll scream and shout

I have become a recluse

It's hard to leave the house

You say it's all in my head

I'm controlled chaos

I think I'm better off dead

I'm controlled chaos

I know I'm just in my way

I'm controlled chaos

Still searching for better days

I'm controlled chaos

Try to remember to breathe

I'm controlled chaos

Try to stop clinching your teeth

I'm controlled chaos

And it's my life should I save

I'm controlled chaos

Always one foot in the grave

I'm controlled chaos