The Beginning Lyrics

Writing this letter to myself

Yea the old me wouldn't listen

I try so hard to hold my breath

But that don't protect my vision

Steady thinking bout what I left

Did I make the right decision

Gone get cramped if I go stretch I know that's gone cause division

I been preaching to my brother I ain't been livin perfect neither

I been so happy my daddy that luh bitch the broke the needle

Granny happy that he home but he get wrong then she gone beat

Member waking up to fights at night at night like fly me back to Meka

Feel like I worked a 9 to 5 since 99 been working fa my people

From the ages 5 to 9 I faced the judge he told me what I needed

Better yet he asked me what I want then turn his back nd said no you don't

Really ain't yo choice till you get grown they flood my house destroy my home

My mom into it wit my grandma while my pops locked up in prison

I ain't seen him in bout 6 years he done

Canceled all our visits

Like chill nd let me do my sentence

Everytime y'all come up here I wanna leave out this bitch witch'a make me a killer

Have you really ever had to choose from yo parents

When that love shit out the window gotta measure they standards

When your daddy broke as fuck can't even afford you no sandals

But yo moma getting by just got a house right by candler?

Aint know discussion they gone tell you the answer

You gotta move

Dont give no fucks if you in love with the teacher you changing schools

Don't give no damn they scream your name in the bleachers they finna boo

Yea they gone buck is you gone walk out or beat 'em what you gone do

Ahh nahhh nah

I had a hard time grew up wit love the man a above my feelings all tied

He think he tuff when it's enough I cross the jaw line

We call his bluff and ruffed him up now he a sad guy

Ma say I swing just like my pops now I'm the bad guy

I cried enough in my last cry

Thought you slid enough on yo last slide

Get hit wit some shit my papa shot from a past life

Yea I know thats right

Writing this letter to myself

Yea the old me wouldn't listen

I try so hard to hold my breath

But that wont protect my vision

Steady thinking about what I left

Did I make the right decision

Gone get cramped if I don't stretch I know that's gone cause division

I been preaching to my brother I ain't been living perfect neither

I been so happy for my daddy that lil bitch done broke the needle

Granny happy that he home but he get wrong then she gone beat him

Remember waking up to fights at night like fly me back to Meka

He damn near caught 3 more bodies locked in that cage thinking bout us

I'm on the outside with no father you could say we both was ruff

He done caught so many charges they done damn near pulled they plug

If my grandma wasn't a high chief pigs would have left him in the mud

When he touched down I showed him love

We both broke down let's reconstruct

Been gone too long I need a hug

Even though I'm grown ion Give no fucks

Your youngins need you in they life

Can't dodge the mirrors just hit the light

Go face the beast but they gone fight

Before everything get dark tonight