Halfwit Lyrics

When I was fifteen, I buried you underneath

The dirt the way I did when i was eight

When my hamster died, I laid you to his right

The more you'd speak, I'd push you further away from me

I ran to parking lots to smoke some pot

Instead of feeling you the way you asked me to

Then sixteen, I left you stranded in between

The school hallways to chase heartbreak

Cuz the hero's dress fit the antagonist

With my eyes peeled, you asked for a ride and I turned the wheel

Called you a lie as I learned to drive

Didn't care for the sad, but I wish I had

Lonely and afraid I let you be

I silenced you while you were screaming

I'd walk the earth, I'd fly out, I'd dig in

Just to hear you intently, keep you safer than any, the way I should've then

But you'd be a halfwit to trust me again

Seventeen, I locked the gate and burned the keys

With you outside cuz I wanted a night

To be with my youth, and that meant without you

Confidently, I talked to a boy at the party

Remembered what Eve said, keep your lips parted

In not a second more, he was closing his door

You weren't there at the time, so I swore I was fine

Lonely and afraid I let you be

I silenced you while you were screaming

I'd walk the earth, I'd fly out, I'd dig in

Just to hear you intently, keep you safer than any, the way I should've then

But you'd be a halfwit to trust me again

All I wanna do is call my dad

But I wouldn't want to add to the worry that I know he already has

I don't feel the hurt but I see blood in the water

Not knowing if I should keep treading or pull myself up and out

I strike the ones my heart wants to hold

The buried parts of you are coming out in ways that I didn't plan for

All I claim to be is my own mother

But who am I to say that after all that i did to make you the other?

You'd be halfwit to trust me again

You'd be halfwit to trust me again

Screaming, "I'd walk the earth"