Your Secret Lyrics

I saw your post about her

And you know what, that makes me remember 

How you never, not ever, did that for me

'Cause you're just not "into that," apparently

And then I watched you ask her to the prom

At your hockey practice in front of all the guys

The way you paraded her around, yelled "she's mine"

It's nothing like

When "mine" meant me

Now suddenly you're showing her off to the world

It makes me think about how you never wanted to go out,

And I asked if you're embarrassed of me

You bailed out, and said

"Hush, no one needs to know

You reap what you sow, so don't tell a soul

Hush, be mine in private

No, not like a secret, but just private"

You don't wanna be seen with me

'Cause everyone thinks that I'm crazy

Hush, you don't want me private

You wanted me as a secret

I always thought sneaking glances was oh, so romantic

Denied it was disguised 'cause I knew that was true

I was playing with fire so I can't be surprised I got burned 

But it hurt

And I wanted to be everything I dreamed that we'd be

But I guess I never asked if you had the same dream as me

Only three months, but the longest three months of my life

So I put on a face of makeup and cancelled plans to wait

For my ringtone to play

And you'd ask me to a date

But of course only in the dark, with your ghost

'Cause that's all I have now so I'll make it the most

But I can't be someone's sometimes

I can't be a midnight

I can't be hidden from shining daylight

I can't have my rays be dimmed

For you I've lost every limb

I just wanted your hand, I just wanted to dance

I just wanted your connection, not affection

No one has to listen but I need to be heard

And I can't be a secret, I've got too much love to give

I can't lie to my best friends, and strangers, and say that

I'm not in love with you

I just wanted to enjoy the view,

But I was too much for him and now I'm too much for you

Undercover love is a joke

Romeo and Juliet was such a hoax

Fooled me saying this would be some kind of novel trope 

I planned our wedding, you planned our elope 

Now I'm seeing doctors and getting diagnosed 

Took me like an oath, washing my mouth out with soap

You know, I know

That you only keep coming back to cut me open 

'Cause you can't suck the life out of someone not bleeding

"Hush, no one needs to know

You reap what you sow, so don't tell a soul

Hush, be mine in private

No, not like a secret, but just private"

You don't wanna be seen with me

'Cause everyone thinks that I'm crazy

Hush, you don't want me private

You wanted me as a secret