Deserve It Lyrics

He's white fence, family dinner

Fireplace for Ohio winter

Strolling down the street, wave to the neighbour

I'm kitchen table bills, coffee spills

Run down van always hitting the hills

Everyone here works two jobs and tends to themselves, so

When will he look at me and hate the way I walk,

And I talk to myself

When will he look in my eyes and see every way I've died

A thousand times,

And killed myself inside

He'll notice I don't eat

And still wear long sleeves in the summer

Will he still wanna be my lover?

I've spend every hour praying for one just like this 

And he's perfect

And I don't deserve it

I don't deserve it

I don't deserve it

He showed me off to his friends,

Never had a love like that

But what if he's holding my hand and he drops it?

And he screams and he hates me

And I take it blatantly

It's not fair, I shouldn't expect it 

But I just can't help it

So

When will he look at me, and hate the way I look back?

And I lack security

When will he look in my eyes and realize I just don't belong

I know it's not just imposter syndrome

He'll notice I shake, and I break, and I hate

And I sabotage myself, I can't ever catch a break

I've spend every day praying for one like this

And he's perfect

And I don't deserve it

Oh, to be perfect for you

I wanna be perfect for you

Oh, to be perfect for you

I wish I was perfect for you

He looks at me like I'm the only thing he's ever seen

But will he ever see right through me?

We have the same eyes, his looks like they've never cried, not once

And I hope to keep that up

I can't offer much more

Than stars on a lake shore

But please just don't shut your door

I've spent evermore praying for one just like him

And he's perfect

But I don't deserve it

I don't deserve it

I don't deserve it