Varying Conditions Pt. II Lyrics

Varying conditions

This is is what I'm livingg

No matter what I say

It'll all just stay the same

If I don't change how I'm living

I'm too freely giving naw

I'm attracting all these women

I attract the broken kind

It's fucking wit my mind

At this point it's my decision

Bad bitches my religion oh

Better find a new religion

They suck energy & joy

They play with me like toys

Fuck you toxic women

I pour my heart out

Will you listen oh

Pour my heart out

Will you listen no

In a way it's all my fault

I tried to have it all

But you wouldn't listen

Varying conditions

Varying conditions oh oh

I couldn't hold space for myself

So how could I hold space for you

I was stuck &

I didn't know how to continue

Here I am thinking Of the things that I do

Not in a sense of beating myself down

Or wanting you

Just admitting that I can be wrong

I am human too

You held space fa me

But I abandoned you

Instead of sharing my triggers and fear

I held it all in

Until I had to disappear

Now we can't even be friends

Who would have known

My bad decisions would lead me here

Here I am & I have no regrets or fears

It's just time I admit

The part I played in it

I grew a softer heart

Now I love you from a far

I know we will never go back

But I remember more than scars

This wasn't an act

My best friend you had my heart

I was scared right from the start

Because we both felt ease

When it came to feeling dark

This is what I'm living

I'm finally loving me

The way it's supposed to be

Can't depend on all these women

I'm finally loving me

The way it's supposed to be

I'm growing & I'm living

Varying conditions

Varying conditions yeahhh yeah

Varying conditions

This is what I'm living

If I don't quit it

Varying conditions

This is what I'm living

If I don't quit it