Fear Of Abandonment Lyrics

I feel like a stray cat

The one you got up and left lol

You look at me expecting

After you neglect me

How can I take on your mess

My family is so tiring

I can't take on your mess

Won't take on your mess

As I recall now, yes I feel the recollection

Abandonment can tear you down

And sever real connections

What's this all about

It's tearing my heart out

I sever real connections

Guess will learn my lesson

I remember when I was younger

Mom left me with a hunger

For a real connection

But it helped me to grow stronger

I was just kid man

Wish that you could understand

When you turned me away

Mom you made me feel so thin

It made me wish I wasn't here

I looked better than I appeared

I was always good at acting

I just wanted to disappear

This is how I learned to cope

Connections I said nope

Unless they were unhealthy

Now I'm lookin messy

Try not to talk it out

Used to smoke and walk it out

But now I'm steady thinking

Hey, what's this all about?

Used to be able to turn my face

Now I cannot look away

I am facing this today

I am facing this today

In a way this toxic shit

It gave me comfort

In a way this this toxic shit

Was all i knew

After awhile this toxic shit

Wore me down I hit a wall

These feelings I could no longer refuse

You know when you

Can't ignore it anymore

The lunar eclipse

It woke me up

I feel the energy

Of the shit I push away

But I feel this energy

About the things that I must face

I feel it enter me

I can't smoke and float away

Gotta process this today

The fear of abandonment I face

Won't be lessening

Can't push it away

Toxic thoughts meet their reckoning

Process this today

No matter how it plays

Out in my mind

Can't get the best of me

Can't get the best of

Won't get the rest of me

Try not to talk it out

Used to smoke and walk it out

But now I'm steady thinking

Hey, what's this all about?

Used to be able to turn my face

Now I cannot look away

I am facing this today

I am facing this today

In a way this toxic shit

Gave me comfort

In a way this this toxic shit

Was all i knew

After awhile this toxic shit

Wore me down I hit a wall

These feelings I could no longer refuse