struggling Lyrics

Bitch I'm struggling, falling down this mountain like I'm tumbling

Stumbling, into all these places that I'm hiding in

Find the pen, writing all these lyrics as I'm crumbling

And hear these fucking words cos you aint' heard the ones I'm mumbling

I tell myself these lies that I start to believe

It aint' much of a surprise when I'm watching you leave

I'm feeling sick oh my god I think I'm starting to bleed

And now I'm turning to the drugs cos people fail to see

When I wake up, feels like something that I made up

Still tired from last night can you wait up

I have to go but I really wanna stay uh

Why cant you ever leave me here every day huh

Wait, oh, am I seeing red

I'm really sorry but I wish I could stay in bed

I hate my life cos I spend my days taking meds

They never never work cos I still wish I was dead

Yeah, ay

I never get my chance to speak

I'm always feeling kinda weak

The colour's draining from my cheek

My futures looking not so bleak

My happiness I'm tryna seek

I'm tryna hit my highest peek

I'm tryna deal with all this heat

But I must have the wrong technique

I've been losing sleep like I'm snorting cocaine

I've been feeling trapped like I'm held down with chains

I promised myself I wont lose to the pain

Think i need to escape I just might board a plane

I wont go outside cos I'm feeling down

I've been passing by you won't hear a sound

Fuck all these things that you hear about me

Fuck all the people that say that they doubt me

Fuck all the people that always ignore me

Can't trust the people that say they care for me

I can't keep going my mind getting blurry

I hope this the end of this part of the story