Vanilla

In my nightmares, I let them kiss me with tongue

Until I feel the blues in my veins blush to hot, red blood

And it goes to my head all that rush of dopamine

My doctor loves that for me, says, you go for it

But I hate all that happy so I go off and cry

Clog up the bathroom drain with my tears, a broken toy

And, I eat my pizza cold

And I like my jokes sad

It's the taste of the words

That I never said on the tip of my tongue and

God, do I love it, how it lingers, how it drives me mad