Vanilla Lyrics

In my nightmares, I let them kiss me with tongue

Until I feel the blues in my veins blush to hot, red blood

And it goes to my head all that rush of dopamine

My doctor loves that for me, says, you go for it

But I hate all that happy so I go off and cry

Clog up the bathroom drain with my tears, a broken toy

And, I eat my pizza cold

And I like my jokes sad

It's the taste of the words

That I never said on the tip of my tongue and

God, do I love it, how it lingers, how it drives me mad

But keeps me on my toes, well, who's gonna tell my doctor that?

The fun's in the lying

Twenty-three and I'm wild yeah

In my dreams, I'm told I smell like vanilla and mistakes

They slam the door on my face, and god, do I love it

I knock and knock until I hear my knuckles break some bones

God, what a rush it is to have no fucking where to go

I hear the sirens in my ears, in my limbs come to life

They keep me company, through the night, hold my hand, kiss my eyes

My doctor says the pretty pills can make them go away

Why would I want that though, is she stupid or she insane?

Yeah, my doctor says the pretty pills can make them go away

Why would I want that though, is she stupid or fucking insane?

And, I eat my pizza cold

And I like my jokes sad

It's the taste of the words

That I never said on the tip of my tongue and

God, do I love it, how it lingers, how it drives me mad

But keeps me on my toes, well, who's gonna tell my doctor that?

The fun's in the lying

Twenty-three and I'm wild yeah

Guess they were right, there really is something wrong with me

But, fuck them all to hell, I love it, I love it, I love it, yeah