The Shades of You

Lying in the midst of the fire you ignited but I don’t feel the warmth

Rain comes pouring down, it’s my silver lining, the calm before the storm

I welcome the thunder. I brace myself

I knew this was coming. I couldn’t save myself

I wasn’t strong enough to pull myself out

The shades of you I didn’t recognize disguised themselves

And I was convinced it was all in my head

I didn’t trust myself, I blinded myself instead. Instead

Waking up to a deafening silence everywhere but inside my mind

All this time I thought I needed your presence and now without you I am fine