Ain't what it seems

I'm trying to write my story don't know where to begin

Pick up the pen and ink flows but no thoughts in my head

Scatterbrained I dragged back-and-forth across the page

But I'm not saying anything. I think I'm insane

When I was little, my parents would talk about "in my book"

Confused I asked about it, they said we all got one Filling pages, There's no narrative where I look

If I dictate the plot and pacing this ain't got none

Novelty wore off finding it hard to evolve

Focus on myself, so I don't often get involved

Hardly any XP difficulty unsurprising

Burning gaze on my pad till it somehow receive writing