IF I DIED

(KZulu, is this you?)

Would I be proud of my life if tomorrow I was dead?

I know deep down that I'm chasing a feeling I'll never get

I'm stuck in my past with my trauma, I'm living in my head

Sometimes when it's dark at night I just wanna get lost in space

Lately I just haven't been okay (okay), I'm just surviving the day (the day), I been feeling dead since May (dead since may)

I been lacking on the weights (on the weights), I been back to smoking eighths (smoking eighths) , couple days where I ain't ate (I ain't ate)

I went and got a bussdown to represent my tears

I changed worlds nigga, now I'm facing new fears (facing new fears)

Like a smoke field, my mind is just not clear (not clear)