blue

I wish I'd went to sleep for ten years and nobody'd wake me up

I wish I could flip a switch in my brain and it all would just turn off

I wish I'd put down enough medicine to drown the noise out

I wish I'd blink my eyes three times and it all would work out

But I lay here in the silence, in the darkness, in the rust of my own thoughts

Is this imbalance just a breach of my own trust

I'd like to think I have it all together, but we both know that's false

I'm sick of choking down the charcoal, what is living at this cost

I'd like to think it'll all work out

I'd like to think I'll find some happiness in the bitter, twisted doubt