Brother

When you took your life I didn't let myself grieve

But merely wore confused and hopeless guilt upon my sleeve

It's hard to justify the way you'd manipulate me

And even harder when comparably I had it easy

I wish that I could lock you deep in my past

I hate the fact I miss you, but you was all that I had

It's crazy how at a point you were my best friend, shit

I had to cut you off years ago cause I was done pretending

That you were gon get better when you only kept descending

Allegations, addictions, suicide attempts

Something clicked that night you called me desperately

With a fucking gun in your mouth, cocked and ready