BELL JAR

Yeah

Summer 2019, that's when my depression was mountain high

Every time I looked in the mirror, I didn't recognize that guy

Thought about suicide about 100 times, yeah

Had to pretend that I hadn't fell off the deep end

Spent days and nights thinking about how my life should end

I was in love with somebody that didn't love me back

I would cry in my room, wanting to be wrapped in their love

But, then again, I cheated on her in the year earlier

So, maybe I deserve that

To this day, I regret it, she didn't deserve that

Spent the rest of the summer trying to make it up