Break Lyrics

I try hard to make a life, a normal fucking life

But mix it with the shit around me, hard to normalise

Cos all I wanna do is hide sometimes, thinking of a way to stay inside

Cos people get to me, makes no sense to me

First they're friends to me, then they're the enemy

Were you sent for me? You all pretend to be

Eating me mentally - you all are entities

I'm on a descendency; crashing into Earth at a high speed

Just to get up from the wreckage and voyage for my dreams

But with my anxiety it's looking less likely

And I force myself inside just to hurt and to spite me

And I'm taking everything from your joy and your life force

And I'm taking your high horse - anything that I might need

I am the void feeding off of your lightsource

Give you something to cry for when I'm done and when I leave

Any given second I could break

And then I'll make another mistake

I don't know how much more of this I can take

And I'm scared it's already too late

It's like being chained while I'm thinking I'm free

And like being hungry and watching them eat

And I've had as much as I can tolerate, not today

Cos right now, at any second, I could break

I know I act like everyone is against me

Always got this feeling that somebody's gonna get me

My tolerance and my confidence are running on empty

No stopping these monsters, I'm hiding out plenty, yeah

In my head it's do-or-die, do I even try putting up a fight?

Did I waste my time? Do I pull my mind to suicide?

Will I see the light? Will I hide?

All I know is I've never been as torn up as I am tonight

They say that hope is giving meaning to pain

And I'm beginning to think that they don't mean what they say

They said it gets better, it gets worse every day

And I've never been a person who's well-fitted to change, nah

I'm openly honest about my demons

Maybe you have seen them corner me and treat me to a beating

I cannot take no more of this treatment, I'm crying out, screaming

You don't know what I'd give to stop the fucking feeling

Any given second I could break

And then I'll make another mistake

I don't know how much more of this I can take

And I'm scared it's already too late

It's like being chained while I'm thinking I'm free

And like being hungry and watching them eat

And I've had as much as I can tolerate, not today

Cos right now, at any second, I could break

I'm on a mission to explain this demon that I hate

It's the reason that I made these problems

And I never understand how to face it

My soul's in danger and I don't know how to save it

I'm on a tightrope juggling swords

With thoughts sticking in my craw that I don't want anymore

My very soul has been guarded with claws and big doors

But I'll use them to battle and win wars

Any given second I could break

And then I'll make another mistake

I don't know how much more of this I can take

And I'm scared it's already too late

It's like being chained while I'm thinking I'm free

And like being hungry and watching them eat

And I've had as much as I can tolerate, not today

Cos right now, at any second, I could break