Changes Lyrics

I've been going through the motions

Learning how to pretend that everything is perfect

And I've been sinking in an ocean

Drowning but I'm silent

Yet everyone thinks I'm afloat

I'm goin' through changes

But I swear I'm the same

Could ya show me some patience along the way

I'm goin' through changes

But I swear I'm the same

Could ya show me some mercy if I start to stray

I keep goin' through these phases, trapped in all these different mazes

Writin' my own book but I can't find my way through these pages

I keep steppin' on these stages, stayin' down bein' patient

Only way to cure the pain is by making friends with these dead faces

I swear I'm the same (same, same)

All of these demons but I take the blame

I don't need the fame (fame, fame)

I just need money to lessen the pain

This isn't a game (isn't a game)

Sometimes I feel like I'm locked in a cage but I'm not ashamed (no I'm not ashamed)

Imma keep pushin' and searchin' for ways to block out the pain

These voices keep screamin' and yellin' my name, they run through my brain yeah

Tellin' me to grab the rope

Tellin' me to give it up

But Imma keep searchin' for hope and maybe withdrawal for the cup

This liquor it runs down my throat but never seems to be enough

I'm goin through changes

But I swear I'm the same

Could ya show me some patience along the way

I'm goin through changes

But I swear I'm the same

Could ya show me some mercy if I start to stray

Ain't nobody perfect

Ain't nobody ready to give out a verdict

They know that I'm hurtin'

But they ain't gone help cause they think I'm a burden

Tryin' to surface

But I just keep sinkin', I'm feelin so worthless

Ain't found a purpose

No, I ain't found a reason

To try and keep fightin' with all of these demons, yellin' and screamin'

I'm just to quit to try and release em (I'm just to quit)

All these voices in my head, yeah

All these voices that I dread, yeah

All these voices wish me dead, yeah

Hard for me to get ahead, while I'm layin' in my bed

They keep lurkin' in my head (lurkin')

I've been feelin' like I'm dead (dead)

I can't sleep without the meds (can't)

Like a virus, they gon' spread (spread)

Till I'm hangin' by a thread (thread)

I'm just trynna keep my balance

Please don't push me off the edge, no

Please don't push me off the edge, no

I'm goin through changes

But I swear I'm the same

Could ya show me some patience along the way

I'm goin through changes

But I swear I'm the same

Could ya show me some mercy if I start to stray