habitual Lyrics

It is all, it is all, it is all, it is all it is all

It is all getting worse

Stuck inside of my urge

Mason jar cracked to burst

Pain is inside the verse

I guess I have the nerve

Hurt like third degree burn

Egotistical man think he the center of universe

I rap until I'm winded

I try to find my limit

I'm in the corner of the party, timid kid that's hidden

I'll dig myself in a hole

Stay in so they do not know

That I can focus on my own growth, that photosynthesis

He nothing, he a bean sprout

He should just go and leave town

Won't let that shit get me, I will not become a seed of doubt

I'll be unbeatable, sprout right so I'll be seasonal, work on goals not achievable, because I be unreachable

They ain't equal they all go fall short

I've been on some brand new force

Haven't finished putting in skill points this ain't my final form

They don't believe me now

They say just keep it down

They haven't seen me jumping through this, all these leaps and bounds

They want me to peace out

No I will not re-route

Try to get money up and make the bank a whole greenhouse

Watch with best seats in house

Get high, I can't keep count

Inside of my heart deep down

Emotions still crawl around

I remember that Zoom call

I remember COVID, all

I saw their eyes go ball

Spray down it waterfall

Funeral over online call

It's over my dead aunt

The call was way past small

It had over 40 more

They doing that small talk

I didn't even know her name

Didn't even get her name then

I didn't even know who she was

Didn't even know if she was real

We never even got to hang

More and more I be thinking it's all my fault, so I still go blame myself

I guess I'm a faker, heart always cold like a glacier (Oh)

Love always change like a traitor (Oh)

It tasting weird, it's the flavor (Oh)

Can't even trust my own neighbor (Oh)

Never stick it ain't a stapler (Oh)

I confuse the behavior to hell cause so many layers, it's a cake that was catered (Oh)

They don't know about that truth, it's all wrong the sin that's in the fruit

Drugs and glue, they relate the two, let it trickle down, merci beaucoup

Come listen in, yo

The answers are in, now

I'm guilty as sin, oh

I can't read my wrongs, oh

It's invisible ink, oh

So riddle me this, oh

How do I fix my life when I can't connect yang to yin, oh

My neck to head is decked in water

So I can't go and act on forward

All of it is just coming right down to get on right up and torture me

I thought I could go swim like an orca

I still remember that shit in Georgia

The dandelions that were by the house, I guess I'm back talking on that flora

How you even know that, man

That shit back when you was five

Georgia girl still in your dream

Sandman bitch for letting it stay

Big ass living room and stair case

Then we still had to go vacate

You just let your mind run out and dwindle on those basic dreams

Oh okay man now you did it, oh okay so found your limit

It's going back on your past and letting it run fast so it go now inflict

So here man have a ticket, since you think it should insist

Had enough of myself going back on it so I'll just go and zip it

Go outside in the night and live it, hearing the frogs they go, oh ribbit

White noise calm my heart but there is no joy my heart just a pit

I'm ready so come and bring it, I hate the silence all those old crickets

White noise run my heart but I lose my voice it's a flick of the switch

Get the fuck up out my bracket, we got on that brand new fabric

Thirty to a twenty that's how many times they wronged me

They don't want me in their club they treat me like a zombie

So I'm sorry my habits are getting worse

I'm an addict to them I can't stop I know

I was talking to this one guy, and he was all like

"Oh, there's no girls that like me, I don't know what to do"

And he was all like "Wah, wah, wah, wah"

And I, just talked to him, and I'm like

Bitch

You need to shut up

Calm down

And just like, fucking try, idiot