Inshallah ft. Hobbes Duende Lyrics

You know everything is inshallah

Everything is gods will

Even if you dont even agree with it

Cause there's gonna be things

Where you look back at

That you prayed for that you got now

You get me?

Yeah

I tap into my deepest pain

To keep me sane

The reaper hangs

Like freezing rain

I'm seeing things

Biting my fingers

Like they teething rings

One verse equal to a ki of cain

God is great speak his name

Beefing with heathens

Aint no reason I'ma be arraigned

Millimeters bang

Leaking brains auf wiedersehen

All the wounds that we sustained

Made us uniquely brave

Every level the rules change

Can you complete the game

Racist policies detain

And bodies being drained

My girl seeing me through this

Last thing that bothers me is paying

I need to stop delaying

She gotta see a ring

Because I owe her my life

Honesty and name

Inshallah

God forgive me

Lost my mommy in 19

And a baby in 2020

Question the plan

Like what does he want from me

Growing sick of quoting scriptures

Going against my own religion

Showing symptoms

No conviction

Show me wisdom

I know I'm slipping

First time in my life

I'm scared of fasting

Gotta confront my terrible actions

Air mattress to Paris fashion

Retail therapy cover madness

Can't imagine

All the things I use to be distracted

I'm supposed to be growing

But emotionally broken

So I'm caught in systems

Of narcissism

Missing altruism

My conscience caught in prison

Of my faults and schisms

Couldn't believe my eyes

When I walk in the room oh

I felt the calmest of wounds ugh

Allah could you

I mean damn

Why you put my momma on tubes

The very next year you killed my daughter in a womb

Still I prayed Salah

Though I I couldn't talk and I couldn't walk

The time I just watched it move

They protesting with no change ugh

Shoot rubber bullets with no aim nah

You don't know pain

My dad don't know blame

He asked me why I don't call

I don't know Greg

Fuck I don't know Greg

Inshallah

You know the first thing I wanted to do when I found out I was gonna be a father

Was talk to my mom

And I hadn't spoke to my mom for almost two years before she died

And so like that let me know how damaged I was and how much you know I needed to heal

And it wasn't until I lost my baby did I realise how much I wanted to be a dad

Like I knew I was excited but it wasn't until I lost the opportunity

Did it really hit me

And I remember when I phoned my father and I was telling him like what was happening

This nigga was like I'm glad I'm not in your shoes

So when I say I don't know why I don't phone him

Because I already know everything he's gonna say before hand

So I don't even bother with the phone conversation you get me

But everything is Inshallah man

I'm just trying to move trying to heal

And I dont I don't pretend to overstand all the plans but sometimes man it can't be that