turbulence Lyrics

I think I'm trying to get my story straight for at least the thousandth time

Feelings unpredictable after all of these long nights

I guess I'm trying to explain the way I am

So will you sit and listen

I just want to be a better man

Is that so hard to manage

But I guess that you'll never understand

Cause I don't even know the person that looks at me in the mirror

I really want to tell you everything I am

But I don't wanna risk the chance of me losing hope again

I'm falling down can't find my footing

Driving off this bridge sounds soothing

Hold my tears and then I plummet

Why can't I fucking control it

I'm freaking out I don't want to tell my friends

Cause I don't want them to see all the demons that's within

I think I'm breaking down I pray to God that he's my friend

Cause if I die tomorrow I don't know where the hell I'll end

I guess I'm trying to explain the way I am

So will you sit and listen

I just want to be a better man

Is that so hard to manage

But I guess that you'll never understand

Cause I don't even know the person that looks at me in the mirror

I really want to tell you everything I am

But I don't wanna risk the chance of me losing hope again

I'll tie my noose tighter this time

Climb a roof a thousand feet high

Pills then sip liquor slowly

Slit my wrist send me up high

But I guess that you'll never understand

Cause I don't even know the person that looks at me in the mirror

I really want to tell you everything I am

But I don't wanna risk the chance of me losing hope again