The Wilderness Lyrics

I wake up sad at the foot of Jacob's Ladder

I would make a plan if I could break this heavy state

That makes my belly ache and energy vibrate at low frequency

Where I don't even see the demons I already face

I've been banished for many days

Its dark as fuck and its depressing, I'm attempting to meditate

But every breath I take is toxic and I'm fading out

Don't wanna leave the crib and I don't know what I'm afraid about

I get online coz I sense that if I say it out

I might catch a friend and get intervention

But the internet is just noise and interception

By the devil's little busboys and wicked henchmen

My paranoia getting waaay justified, does the sky

Remember me, who cut supplies, where am I

I don't know this place

I hold a weight that's breaking my shoulder blades

And I donno

If we're the chosen race

But we are the ones that had a fall from grace

And ended up here in the lower state

It ain't where we're from, it's where we at

And now we tryna go back but don't know the way

We don't have the answers so we Sway

Up and down the wilderness

Can't believe its where our children live

I donno If we're the chosen race

But we are the ones that had a fall from grace

And ended up here in the lower state

It ain't where we're from, it's where we at

And now we tryna go back but don't know the way

We don't have the answers so we Sway

Up and down the wilderness

Can't believe its where our children live

I can't believe where I'm living at

My spirit bleeds with each step that seems to lead down a different path

It's hard to see past this and that

My outer image contradicts and contrasts what my spirit lacks

I simmer back with tears I hardly shed

Trying to find peace amongst bickering voices in my head

Cut the dreads

But my demons fled back so instead

I resorted to seek release from my anguish through the pen

Trying to navigate and retrace back to my zen

Be my brothers keeper as much as the brother that is kept

My distress

Is checking if my spirit ever left

The place of its birth that's connected to its death

I struggle to find breath ah ha

Anxiety seeking me I always intercept

How much time is still left I don't know

What can be rectified and what has been defiled what is next

Will my people ever know peace within this time

Is it that we care too much is existence really blind

As my son rise with each sunrise

We closer to our sunset the lifting and falling off the tide

Are we destined to run this race

Will it ever end before I find my pace

Shall I amplify or deny my fate

Is it early days or the nights come late

I don't know