Angel but Devil is louder Lyrics

Lying on the bathroom floor

I can't do this anymore

This emotional manipulation that you got me facing

Kills me slowly

Always trying to hide

Keep everything inside

Sacrifice my house

To please somebody else

Useless medical evaluations

To cure my self inflicted starvation

But I'm too far from salvation

Living life intoxicated

Losing all my motivation

I'm so close to termination

It's hard to believe

You have a whole life without me

That works so perfectly

I'm clingy cuz I love you

You wouldn't understand

You don't love the way that I do

I don't have to pretend

But now I'm detached

You stabbed me in the back

I was ready for you

But you never came through

I wish we could have a conversation

Improve your communication

Cuz you owe me an explanation

Your lack of consideration

And why I live in isolation

You come after my reputation

This constant degradation

It's so frustrating and aggravating

You are the apple of my eye

And I so adore you

But sometimes you make me wanna die

I wonder where you were

When the demons raged in the back of my brain

Their words were seeping making me go insane

Head on my shoulder heart on my chest

I'm getting older I need some rest

Flame on my finger knife on my neck

Expected it to hurt but I have no regret

I guess you keep your friends close but your enemies closer

Cuz I'm always an arms length away

And I think that if it were up to you

Someone else would be in my place

But I know

I should've walked away

Why do I fucking stay

Cuz I'd hold your hair back when you're throwing up

Convince you you're my everything when you're sure you are not enough

But where were you

When I'm about to puke

Fingers in the back of my throat

Let's go let's go let's go