At My Lowest Lyrics

I can not lie to you

I'm probably better on my own

Knowing I'm not perfect, why they trying to fix my wrongs?

I kill this shit like any nigga that ever try to do me wrong

I tell her I'm a tidwell child I'm throwing fours until I'm gone

I can not take it there

Growing up they all said fuck me

I hear it everywhere

No hand outs they treat me ugly

Act like I never cared

I came in and started running

With holes up in my shirts I know they never seen me coming

Fuck them all

I'm on this shit like I'm on top but I can never fall

I told my twin this shit don't work let's take another route

I want to change bae, hold me

Fuck about what they thinking

I'll be dead before I let them control me

How can Houston feel so crowded but in my head I feel so lonely

With all this weight that's on my shoulders

To the point where I can't hold it

With all this money I be spending to numb the pain when at my lowest

I don't know bae

I can't cope bae

Hold my hand throughout this shit I can't pretend like I be tough and all

It's three o'clock in the morning I can't sleep I took that adderall

It's just me and Tez in this bitch, I know they hating want to see me fall

Last bitch said she don't love me so next time won't put my love involved

Ohhh

Reminiscing bout my past like it time to let it go

Hate the fact the hood made me grow fast it took my soul

So many nights this blade became my friend to help me cope

Said that you'll be right here till the end like where you go

Changes

Reality be fading

Trying to move away cause I can't deal with all these faces

Going through the motions staying real cause I can't fake it

Tell them I'ma be the the voice for all them niggas that won't say shit

They won't say shit

They just talk behind my back

Surprised that I'm still living with all these knives that's in my back

Was taking advantage of kindness now I walk round with that strap

I'll be dammed if I let them play me, I ain't going out like that

Fuck them all

I'm on this shit like I'm on top but I can never fall

I told my twin this shit don't work let's take another route

I want to change bae, hold me

Fuck about what they thinking I'll be dead before I let them control me

How can Houston feel so crowded but in my head I feel so lonely

With all this weight that's on my shoulders

To the point where I can't hold it

With all this money I be spending to numb the pain when at my lowest

I don't know bae

I can't cope bae

It's just me in this bitch

Dealing with that shit you know I

Put it all on the mic

Fuck how they feeling

Do what I got to do

I can not lie to you

I'm probably better on my own

Knowing I'm not perfect why they trying to fix my wrongs?

I kill this shit like any nigga that ever try to do me wrong

I tell her I'm a tidwell child I'm throwing fours until I'm gone

I can not take it there

Growing up they all said fuck me

I hear it everywhere

No hand outs they treat me ugly

Act like I never cared

I came in and started running

With holes up in my shirts I know they never seen me coming