Ambivalence Lyrics

Everybody feels so far out of reach

What's wrong with me

I can't compete

My mental state is getting weak

Don't lose sight

See

Time is on our

Side

You broke my home

This time I won't

Let you come close

This time I won't

Let myself in that position with no benefits

I want what's best for you can't you see that's evident

I had a thousand lines to write for you that's punishment

On my behalf, I should of known that I was suffering

So I burnt that bridge

Killed every thought that could reconstruct it

I was so obsessed

But that led to nothing

I was so depressed and that led to something

Bunch of sleepless nights praying up to god

Started Losing faith was it just a facade

I don't wanna say it is but I favor those odds

And I don't wanna believe it but believing is all that I got so

I'm gonna move on

Rebuild my life it's a new dawn

Few songs won't get me out of this town

It's gonna take a couple hundred and self-doubt

I'll buy out

My reason for this

I don't know anymore

I lost sight of that

Oh, About a year ago

I just sit in my room with no purpose

I lost all my courage

These words just keep hurting

So cover up me with this curtain

Wish this feeling would go

Nothing could numb all the pain that she wrote

All of those messages

What did I do never answered them

That felt like ages ago

Honesty hurts

Your true intentions are so fucking worse

You only cared when you benefit

Blamed it on medicine

You were my everything

Why did I let him in

I'm done with excuses

I'm done feeling useless

I don't really care anymore

I lost my perception

I lost that connection

I don't wanna feel anymore

I just miss the feeling of life

I wanna start feeling alright

But I'm scared I'll repeat what I had to just fight

Fuck where is the light

This time I won't

Let feelings go

This is time I won't

Let feelings go

Don't you dare leave again

It's my own fault this toxic air

Is killing me

It's only right if I leave here

So don't lose sight

See

Times on our side

Cause times on our side

Woah

On our side

Side

Side

Just put so much work and passion in the shit I do

My skeletons I had to them bring out to talk to you

Went back in time and watched someone Grow up barely knew

The question still remains, I've been afraid

I can't escape the shit he paved

So What will I do?

Lacking in energy, wish I could prove

I just wanna show love But it's hard to receive it

All of the hate in the world, can't we just leave it

These times are deceiving me, I can't think

They take up all of their emotion and then they pour a drink

And then they tell me how they want a clear mental space

I'm so done with feelings, so this time I say

This time I won't

Let feelings go

This time I won't

Lets feelings go